THE DAY 1 GOT PREGNANT. FINAL PART.

 Horpsy, where is the part 3?

Even in my sleep, that was all I was hearing. You people too like gossip and thats why you keep coming back here and of course there is enough gists and tea to go around, so don't worry about you not getting a cup of tea except you don't take tea. You noticed I've changed the page theme too so you can feel more welcomed ☺️ 

Lets start what we have come into the room to do (insert beats) (If you know you know 😉😉)

I got of the bus and lied to my dad that I had to take permission in School and I will be home on Monday, this was a saturday, remember? and I was also not in School. I am not looking to add to my problem of not being in school since I left home for the past 2 weeks.

On Monday, I packed just few things and left my boyfriend's place in the afternoon so I can reach home at night. I am from an African home and I have not passed beating so if they want to pounce on me, let it be at night when nobody can see them spoiling my steeze and I didn't know what they had planned for me. 

Depending on how you imagine things, the rest of this tea can be emotional, sensitive, funny or sad but lets continue. 

I got home around 7pm and I met my mum and sister at home and the next thing that came out of my mum's mouth was "Oloyun, eti de" meaning "welcome, pregnant woman". It was funny an akward but I cant find anything to laugh about. I stayed at the door till I was told to come in cos I am not about to step on any more toes. 

I went into my room to drop my bag and I saw that my mum had hanged drip like they do in the hospital, I say " wetin be this abi eyes dey pain me ni". I was then called to come and have dinner, 'yes ma' I think it was Amala and ewedu, the food sweet o but as I was eating, my dad came home and the food just hung in my throat. "he he he he he, I'm not gonna take it easy on my hater' I don't have close rapport with him anyways but because I had done the unthinkable I have to compose.

He said when I finish eating, I should join him in the parlour, I did and he started asking me questions. Who impregnated you? I had to tell him the person i picked to be responsible and No, the person wasn't a stranger infact he was a visitor in our street (someone that came to spend holiday with a known family). He further asked me where we carried out the act, told him it wasn't on the street but the guy's friend's place. He say 'you no dey fear' I didn't answer. He said 'you are better than that guy o, or were you raped' I said No. There were a lot of questions that I couldn't give answers to at that point because with which mouth? 🤭

My mum now said 'even if you want to have fun, can't you use condom' I didn't answer because what is condom or when did you teach me how to use one 🤔.  After all the unnecessary interrogation, I kept the pregnancy and gave birth to my sister. (Just kidding 😂 🤣) I followed my mum to the room and she started looking for veins in my body to pass the drip.

Mum: this drip is very strong to terminate any pregnancy so don't worry, after few hours you will pass out blood and that's you will go back to your normal life.

Me: Yes ma.

The drip was passed, I finished it and surprise surprise, I didn't pass out any blood 🤣🤣🤣🤣 strong belle. I woke up the next day and everyone was petting me as I fell sick 🤭 so that blood can come out. My mum eventually went to work and she kept calling for blood. I am yet to see any oo. 😒. The next day, I woke up to hot pap by 5am because my mum believed that heat will trigger the pregnancy and it will fall out. 

A whole nurse 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I took this every morning and night and the next day, she added gin to the mix, i take with hot pap with one hand, I step down with hot gin under strict supervision. This time around, my father has moved on with his life, nothing concern him again 😂 On Thursday, my mum asked 'are you sure, you are even pregnant? because all this torture should have affected the baby if you are indeed pregnant. I never mentioned that I had done tests, because they would know that I wasn't in school so there was no assurance/evidence on their part that I am indeed pregnant. 

My mum said, let's go to the lab for test, who am I to say No 🤭 On our way to the lab ( I dont know how she got the address cos e far)=+, my mum  told me 'don't put down your real name o' I said okay, we got there, did the test and boom, NO PREGNANCY 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Sorry, bad joke. The pregnancy was shinning infact almost 2 months now according to the results 😅. My mum said 'you see your life' I see my life oooo 😩😩 She had to approach one of the staff privately and told them our predicament, simply put 'This child has made a mistake and we need help to abort'

The staff was like 'that one na small thing na, we get sure plug for that' so they gave us the address of the sure plug and the woman wanted to start preaching on how I'm grown and can have the baby that she only attend to teenager, my mum start begging her that we have used medication to terminate and the child may be deform now, she should help us. My mum had to show her I.D that she's a nurse blablabla and she's not going to cast her as we only need help. 

Woman to woman, girl's girl. She told us to meet her the next day with our 15k for the procedure and we would still pay her transport costs. This woman took us from Lagos to Sango inside. I can never get that place if i had complications and wanted to go back. But my mum was with me so i had no fear. The hospital was a one man owned and he had all this small girls as nurse. This life ehn, we never asked if he was qualified or anything, we just want to get rid of the pregnancy and I was just there as the sacrificial lamb.  But I'll rather die in safe hands (my mum) than in Oyo town where I knew nobody. 

The procedure was pretty fast but gory, infact it was less than 15mins. My legs were hanged and an iron was inserted in me to part my privates and another iron to scrape out the foetus. They close my legs back and gave me injection and some medicines I used immediately and the rest routinely. I didn't spend extra minutes than that 15mins and I could stand again and we went back home. On our way, instead of my mum to keep quiet 🤫 she started preaching on how I should not think about it and my own child will come, telling me some people plan to keep pregnancy and have miscarriages so I should see it as one. If I give you blow 🤛

I got home, rested and we planned to go back to 'school' the day after tomorrow so they can monitor me to finish my medicine. On the day I was going back to 'school' I was almost approaching Ibadan when I felt that heavy flow. All my clothes was soaked as if a tap of blood was opened under me 😩 and I was on a black skirt so it could be easily concealed. When I got down the bus (I left the stain for them, hopefully the next person will forgive me) I ran straight to 'Academy' that was the only recognised market then at Iwo road. I bought pad and beg the shop owner to allow me fix it but damn I was rushing. That would be my first heavy HEAVY flow.

I got back to my boyfriend's, stayed for a week more before going back to school and we couldn't have the sex that I had promised him, Shame 😔. I won't lie, this marks the begging of our separation 💔. I kept asking if he would forgive me and he said yes but I know deep down it was a lie. I kept things cool though but few people that I discussed this with advise that I should break up with him if he doesn't because if we get married he would start bringing it up and I will feel indebted to him while he keeps abusing me. Immediately he said he wants to break up with me, I didn't even argue because I was already expecting it.

Did I ever get pregnant after this? Leave that to your imaginations 🤣🤣🤣

Did I regret the abortion? Never ever, infact with who I am today, I'm grateful I don't have a child tying me to someone I may end up hating cos the child go suffer. I will be a very bad mother to that child because I don't know who was responsible till date.

My parents could have done better by giving me an option if I wanted to keep or remove, I didn't have a say on my own body which I didn't like.

Do I still have a womb? I'm menstruating 🤭

Come back to this blog for more juice and tea, I kind of enjoy being vulnerable here. Incase you want to gossip about me, don't screenshot this post, just copy the link and send to your coven people. I need the veiws and who knows, they may end up liking my personality. 

📸: me and my then boyfriend. 

Song for the day: Dance in the rain by Tuface.

#hermothersdaughter #pregnancy #princesshorpsy #womanhood #babygirlforlife 

Me and Church boy.

 What happened between me and this man. 

I can't remember his name as we didn't spend up to a week knowing ourselves. He had invited me to church that Sunday and our plan was that after church, we would meet together in the evening as he had said he wanted to join my evening walk so we can know ourselves better while on an activity.

It sounded like a nice plan, so I met him in Church. The service went well and we were also anticipating seeing each other physically during the service. After the service, he said he had somewhere else to go and he would like me to follow him as it would be fun and we would come back for our walk in the evening.

I initially refused but he kept teasing me and promising it would be fun, so I followed this stranger in excitement to where I did not plan nor know about. The house turned studio was far from the main road and inside all this abandoned houses that the will name 'close' in Nigeria.

I was the only woman in that house as at when I got there but I wasn't scared though because that's not my first time in such situation and i love taking risks like that. 😍 He already told me that there would be lunch but as usual, there is nothing.

After about an hour, he said he was stepping out with one of the guys, he wont be long and he would get me food on his way back. The was light so I held on to his promise and was watching TV. After a while, a girl came to join me. She was the one that was suppose to anchor the program or whatever.

Now I have been waiting for about 3 hours now, no food, nothing. I know I should have stand up to find my way but I was using the period to charge my phone as light wasnt stable in my home.

He came back sweating and apologizing while giving me bread because 'he didn't see food to buy'. Before you say, its the thought that count, I am not a fan of bread, It is not something I appreciate and it felt like an insult.

How would I be waiting for 3 hours and you present me bread as lunch.

This is almost 4pm and I had told this man earlier that I start my walk by 4pm and I would like to take my leave as to go prepare for my walk and freshening up. He started begging me to stay that they would soon be done and I kept saying No that I wanted to leave, he went to call everyone that I am angry and want to leave so they should beg me to stay after telling him the reason why I wanted to leave.

Now, this is embarrassing so I had to stay for what was never my business. He later got me food but I was tired and angry and my mood was completely off. There and then, I decided that we would never meet again, not even by mistake.

I got home around 6.30pm, with a completely wasted day, regret, tired and pissed. I learnt once again never to bend for men nor change my schedule based on emotions.

He reached out to me to apologize but we ended up blocking each other and that is the end of a relationship that never started.

Short man.

Song for the day: Raindrops by Tuface.

#hermothersdaughter #princesshorpsy

MY CRUSH HATES ME.

 '6 foot 5

Act your size

I've been shy

Now I go talk my mind'.

Tales by moonlight by Tiwa Savage ft Ameerae.

This is my companion for now while I wait for my chilled wine to get me lost in the moment, the sensual innuendo in this song has made me remember all the men i have crushed on for the past 3/4 years. I shouldn't be telling you the meaning of crush at this point, right?

Let me start with my celebrity crush, male of cause. 

My first crush was Olamide Baddo, there is nobody that knew my that I don't introduce Olamide to. I knew almost everything about him then and i dont tolorate any slander on his person. My friend Seyi got tired of me and Olamide at one point. I had all his songs, album and whatever it is he released. It got to a point where i started recommending his songs to everyone around me. I really dont know how that crush ended because now I no longer have time for him.

The next is Davido, I remember I was in my father's parlour when his Single 'Damiduro' aired and since then i was hooked on his this guy. I was always looking foward to his next release then he started dropping albums. I was among the 1000 that downloaded his album. I think I lost the crush when there was a rumour of him attempting to kidnap his child.

Then here comes Falz the Bahd guy, his body and Charisma swept me and still sweeping me off my feet. Ha 'omo tan'. From his Toyin Tomato, to Jamb Question to Celebrity girlfriend and more. There is just something about Falz, his voice, body, caramel topping and more that i wont be saying here before you snatch him from me. Guy is my type. I don't think I have lost him though but he has joined bad gang and stopped giving me quality music. This is Nigeria is still one of my best from him but I have my reservation about his 'child of the world' that song is a NO NO.

The latest is Kizz Daniel, my baby boo. It's his height and lips for me and his carriage. My guy doing his stuff on the low. Shine Shine bobo and his songs are still hitting the right keys in my body. I don't allow my ex rest whenever Kizz releases a new song. I would also beg him to learn any dance steps Kizz does so he can replicate the dance steps for me. I have not broken up with Kizz though, he is sharing my attention with Falz. They can cohabit right, after all women are polygamous in nature.

My wine is here and though I am light weighted, I still love my alcohol and the effects it has on me. I hope you are sipping on something because its about to get hot, like hot hot. I am a firm believer of men chasing after women and I also believe women should go after who they want especially since life is short so let do what makes us happy. Yes a woman should withdraw if there is no exchange of energy, don't wait till you are disrespected. Count your lose and move on if he doesn't like you back.

Omo, this grilled chicken is so spicy. I want to scratch my tongue

If you see my celebrity crush, the pattern with them is they are successful that should give an hint about my crush that I would be talking about. They are complete package, gbagbe 'King by Fireboy'. I am the girl that approach my crush and tell them I like them and there is none that doesn't like me back but as usual it doesn't work out.

D is young , we are about the same age or he slightly older than me but he his very brilliant. He has his English language polished and his argument are always spot on. I like me an outspoken someone and can carry people along without insulting anyone. I remembered I had approached him one night and expressed my feelings and he immediately confirm he had same feelings for me. All was going well between us, send pictures , checking on each other, chatting and boom, Covid killed everything as we were in lock down and it affected our growing relationship, plus the #ENDSARS protest. Emotions were high and that how it ended with him. We still chat after everything but it wasn't like it used to be so we went our separate ways but I tried, right?

AY is the 2nd person i will be talking about, I would try as much as possible not to disclose much for him to be traced because he is such a private person. He is older but I still tried my luck and he also said he liked me back but he refuse to show me. On some days I would reach out, he would never reply me even when its obvious that he is online and making posts. I had to un follow him on social platforms for my sanity at one point because even he had said he like me back why is he leaving me on read. I will add here that I do wait for his messages on days he choose to reach out so that I can also leave him on read. 2 can play the game. 😎 

I actually wanted our ship to sail because even though I have not met him physically, I have this special likeness for him but the special died in the likeness when he gave me one information one day and I even though I was angry because I felt like I wasted my time waiting on him, I am still glad he counted me worthy to inform me first maybe out of respect I don't know or maybe I should ask him before I publish this because I am very sure he would read this. I know him that much. I have stopped crushing on him though he still owe me something whenever we eventually meet. He's the one I call the biggi man 'Motigbana by Olamide' Suprisingly, we are still cool. We still laugh  and make fun of each other whenever we talk but he is a stubborn gooat.

Lets call the last one AD, I think I am at a point where I have stopped crushing on him. You know when you like someone, you hardly see their flaws. He knows I am kind of obsessed about him and he takes that advantage to the fullest. I would literally do anything for him. I would tell him not to treat me in a way but he would do that which I kick against. I would laugh it off or sometimes get angry, which ever way he would get away with it without apology. 

We have not seen each other for a while and I use that while to evaluate our closeness and our 'relationship' It doesn't look like it worth the stress. I guess the likeness have worn off, though If I see him now I would get excited but I don't know how to explain it, he is not bad but he doesn't treat me the way I want.

Or is it me feeling entitled since I approached him first.

Tell me in the comment box.

Thanks for reading

I love you.