MY CRUSH HATES ME.

 '6 foot 5

Act your size

I've been shy

Now I go talk my mind'.

Tales by moonlight by Tiwa Savage ft Ameerae.

This is my companion for now while I wait for my chilled wine to get me lost in the moment, the sensual innuendo in this song has made me remember all the men i have crushed on for the past 3/4 years. I shouldn't be telling you the meaning of crush at this point, right?

Let me start with my celebrity crush, male of cause. 

My first crush was Olamide Baddo, there is nobody that knew my that I don't introduce Olamide to. I knew almost everything about him then and i dont tolorate any slander on his person. My friend Seyi got tired of me and Olamide at one point. I had all his songs, album and whatever it is he released. It got to a point where i started recommending his songs to everyone around me. I really dont know how that crush ended because now I no longer have time for him.

The next is Davido, I remember I was in my father's parlour when his Single 'Damiduro' aired and since then i was hooked on his this guy. I was always looking foward to his next release then he started dropping albums. I was among the 1000 that downloaded his album. I think I lost the crush when there was a rumour of him attempting to kidnap his child.

Then here comes Falz the Bahd guy, his body and Charisma swept me and still sweeping me off my feet. Ha 'omo tan'. From his Toyin Tomato, to Jamb Question to Celebrity girlfriend and more. There is just something about Falz, his voice, body, caramel topping and more that i wont be saying here before you snatch him from me. Guy is my type. I don't think I have lost him though but he has joined bad gang and stopped giving me quality music. This is Nigeria is still one of my best from him but I have my reservation about his 'child of the world' that song is a NO NO.

The latest is Kizz Daniel, my baby boo. It's his height and lips for me and his carriage. My guy doing his stuff on the low. Shine Shine bobo and his songs are still hitting the right keys in my body. I don't allow my ex rest whenever Kizz releases a new song. I would also beg him to learn any dance steps Kizz does so he can replicate the dance steps for me. I have not broken up with Kizz though, he is sharing my attention with Falz. They can cohabit right, after all women are polygamous in nature.

My wine is here and though I am light weighted, I still love my alcohol and the effects it has on me. I hope you are sipping on something because its about to get hot, like hot hot. I am a firm believer of men chasing after women and I also believe women should go after who they want especially since life is short so let do what makes us happy. Yes a woman should withdraw if there is no exchange of energy, don't wait till you are disrespected. Count your lose and move on if he doesn't like you back.

Omo, this grilled chicken is so spicy. I want to scratch my tongue

If you see my celebrity crush, the pattern with them is they are successful that should give an hint about my crush that I would be talking about. They are complete package, gbagbe 'King by Fireboy'. I am the girl that approach my crush and tell them I like them and there is none that doesn't like me back but as usual it doesn't work out.

D is young , we are about the same age or he slightly older than me but he his very brilliant. He has his English language polished and his argument are always spot on. I like me an outspoken someone and can carry people along without insulting anyone. I remembered I had approached him one night and expressed my feelings and he immediately confirm he had same feelings for me. All was going well between us, send pictures , checking on each other, chatting and boom, Covid killed everything as we were in lock down and it affected our growing relationship, plus the #ENDSARS protest. Emotions were high and that how it ended with him. We still chat after everything but it wasn't like it used to be so we went our separate ways but I tried, right?

AY is the 2nd person i will be talking about, I would try as much as possible not to disclose much for him to be traced because he is such a private person. He is older but I still tried my luck and he also said he liked me back but he refuse to show me. On some days I would reach out, he would never reply me even when its obvious that he is online and making posts. I had to un follow him on social platforms for my sanity at one point because even he had said he like me back why is he leaving me on read. I will add here that I do wait for his messages on days he choose to reach out so that I can also leave him on read. 2 can play the game. 😎 

I actually wanted our ship to sail because even though I have not met him physically, I have this special likeness for him but the special died in the likeness when he gave me one information one day and I even though I was angry because I felt like I wasted my time waiting on him, I am still glad he counted me worthy to inform me first maybe out of respect I don't know or maybe I should ask him before I publish this because I am very sure he would read this. I know him that much. I have stopped crushing on him though he still owe me something whenever we eventually meet. He's the one I call the biggi man 'Motigbana by Olamide' Suprisingly, we are still cool. We still laugh  and make fun of each other whenever we talk but he is a stubborn gooat.

Lets call the last one AD, I think I am at a point where I have stopped crushing on him. You know when you like someone, you hardly see their flaws. He knows I am kind of obsessed about him and he takes that advantage to the fullest. I would literally do anything for him. I would tell him not to treat me in a way but he would do that which I kick against. I would laugh it off or sometimes get angry, which ever way he would get away with it without apology. 

We have not seen each other for a while and I use that while to evaluate our closeness and our 'relationship' It doesn't look like it worth the stress. I guess the likeness have worn off, though If I see him now I would get excited but I don't know how to explain it, he is not bad but he doesn't treat me the way I want.

Or is it me feeling entitled since I approached him first.

Tell me in the comment box.

Thanks for reading

I love you.