There have been a lot of questions surrounding my weight loss and while there are speculations that I lost weight to secure a man, don't like how I look, I am looking for a man and all others that I have forgotten. To be truthful, I loved how I looked 2 years ago, chubby, tall, beautiful with good skin. I always command respect any where I step because of the physical features. People always give me my space because in Nigeria, fat people have money and they deserve to be worshipped.
Unlike weight loss, It is very easy to gain weight and the first step is being careless on how you eat. With weight loss, you have to be intentional about what you eat. When people come to me complaining about someone they know that can finish a house and still not get fat, I laugh. I know our genes also play a big role determining our body weight and we have also seen families with a mixture of fat and slim people. I would say your body weight is majorly in your hands.
I didn't grow up as a fat person, I grew up and started getting fat. Apart from have a wide hips my body was just there. My fat became obvious in 2017, I had finish my first degree and I don't have what exactly to do than eat, relax and be taken care of. 2020 was the highest I had been. I weighed almost a 120kg before I started my weight loss journey.
I'm having a music break. Sungba by Asake.
In 2020, I had gone out of shape. I knew I needed to get a remedy but I didn't know how to lost weight. I was looking at myself in the mirror with a NO NO NO. I think that's depressing on its own, having to look at the mirror and seeing someone else. I had tried home gym and I didn't get result not because I wasn't accountable to anyone. My boyfriend then always reward me with Ice cream and fried rice whenever I lost a kg. The Irony.
February 2020, the Covid lockdown came and there was no movement till around May. You can guess what I was investing my money on FOOD, FOOD, FOOD plus sleep. We had steady electricity so I was trying several recipe. We couldn't go to work and we had to survive one way or the other.
I remember by May 2020, I was no more chubby nor fat, I had blown. March/April 2020 I started having issues with my right leg, I would wake up in the morning and I wont be able to lift my leg for the first 15mins of the day. As a Nigerian, I thought it was a minor thing so I got hot balm and would apply hoping the pain would relief me. My boyfriend warned me to visit the hospital but Hospitals were barely attending to people except your condition is critical.
I visited the pharmacy and got any drug for bone pain. I was using it with the balm and instead of getting better, my leg was getting worse. I couldn't go out and when I did I relied on one leg. Most of the time I am useless. I would wake up in the morning and instead of standing up to face the day I would crawl down from my bed, not crawl. I would roll down my bed till my body tells me I am free to stand up. I was coming home one day when I felt the same pain on my left leg. I was in the middle of the road and I had to throw away my bags just to support my leg with my hand. I was bowed on that spot for 10mins of the day and I told myself if I don't attend to this leg, I may get paralyzed from it.
I got home and wailed. The thought of losing my legs was worse than death. My only fear is being alive and useless, I would rather die than having someone helping me do stuff that I could do but can no longer do. I started using support (walking sticks) in the house. I was buying stuff with home delivery because I was scared I could just fall in the middle of the road. My 2 legs are now bad, one worse than the other. The pain was in my hips and affected the whole leg.
I thought of where I could get my leg checked by professionals before I lost them and I remembered one of my acquaintance works in orthopaedic hospital, I called him up and told him all I have been passing through and my fears. He asked me to come early to the hospital in two days time so he can use his influence to help me get checked because of the priority giving to people in critical condition, Covid palava.
I got to the hospital before 7am and he was shocked. I called him that I am around and he helped me. I got x-ray done, I took the result to the doctor and the Doctor said all is well with the x-ray result and what am I looking for. Village people have followed me to the hospital. He prescribed some drugs for me and gave me an appointment for follow up on the drugs.
I remember getting home and started wailing. I was worried on the level of pain I was passing through and the doctor said there was nothing detected on me. I remember i would walk and feel my bones grinding each other the way you feel when you grind your teeth against each other. I couldn't tell my parent because I believe they should be resting and not running around for my problem as an adult.
I had visited my parent this period and my Mum looked at me for traces of pregnancy before blurting out 'you are getting fat, please watch it'. For someone that is passing through all I mentioned you can imagine my reply. Amidst tears, I told her i was trying and ran into the bathroom, had another round of tears.
My next hospital appointment, I met with another Doctor and she checked my file, asked me personal questions and ran tests on me. I was diagnosed of TROCHANTERIC BURSITIS. You can read more on that but it simply means 'Chronic hip pain'. She was actually very nice to me and she told me I will be fine and have nothing to worry about. I would first need to sacrifice my weight, if I want to get better. Is this woman playing, what is weight when I am almost losing my legs. She referred me to a dietician and prescribed very strong drugs that I had to drop as they were tampering with my mental health. This is a confirmation that I can't do hard drugs.
The dietician drafted my new meal for me, exercises and gave me tips to make my journey easy. I got home that day and had to make a life changing decision. It is very hard as an adult throwing away the life you use to know and embrace another lifestyle entirely. Weight loss journey is very though, I would tell you the truth. there would be another blog on my struggles, please see it when I drop it. It will address everything I faced and passed through on this Journey.
This is how I started my journey and I write this for people that will ask me in the future on why I embarked on this journey. I don't regret losing weight. I still feel that pain only when I sit for long. I have to balance my life by measuring my sitting and standing. Life though, It has it ways of playing tricks on us.
I am ending this blog with Eh God by my baby Kizz Daniel.
I have the weight loss meal plan that I used for this journey for sale at 5000naira, send me an email at Opeyemiaremu0@gmail.com if you want a copy.
If you have any question, drop it in the comment and I would be willing to answer to the best of my knowledge.
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